Why?
Why can't I live a life like normal people?
Why can't I feel happy with the things I have?
Is it because I think too much?
Or is it that I'm not trying hard enough?
Simplicity is happiness...
So, be simple!
Work ending within a week's time, so I can go in Pursuit of Happyness
Before going into NS
dRIVING_oUT
12:40:00 AM
2 more weeks of work
then i can rest till i go NS
save up money
go japan
go have fun
then start university studies
then go find a job
then get a girlfriend
then marry her
then buy a house
then buy a car
then have kids
then retire
then rest
then die
Wow... Life really is short!
dRIVING_oUT
10:55:00 PM
Feeling half-fucked at the moment
Normal service will resume in a few hours
dRIVING_oUT
9:26:00 PM
Why do people feel a sense of lost when they don't treasure it when it is around?
(WARNING! This post may have a melancholic theme to it, and you might not know who I'm on about if you don't know me since secondary school)
I know you might not like it, or will read it, but I would just like to thank you.
When I first met you in secondary 3, I thought you were just another friend that will push me around like a piece of flier in Orchard Road. I was wrong. You taught me to be positive, bring a smile to others so you can bring yourself a smile. I was in a bit of a depression state at that time, see, and I couldn't see the light of day. I liked the jokes you made and the fact that you always liven up the class, every day, without fail. Still remembered Mdm Yue keeps calling you because you keep making fun of her lessons. Even in poly, I still see you around in school. Initially, I thought you were a bit lonely and bo liao in school, but it turns out that that wasn't true either.
One of the bigger regrets is that I cound not personally go to the airport to see you off. Because, I know it is going to be a long time before we see you again. So, I would like to wish all the best for your future dreams, goals and studies. Hope to see you back in Singapore soon.
dRIVING_oUT
9:11:00 PM
I'm vexed, but I don't know what is the reason...
Maybe, it's because of work. Now that I can fully be honest, I do not like my work. Long work hours, physically demanding, no idea what is coming up next and, oh, the people there. Some are nice, some are good, but most of them are ****** up *** ** * *******. Sudden OTs, jobs, news books coming in and out, no floor space top or bottom. How the hell do I work, you tell me. People pushing, time is ticking, deadline nearing. And, a miserable pay. Thank god this is not my full time job, or else I would have shot myself, no question or shadow of doubt about it.
Maybe, it's because I don't have time for doing my stuff. Watching Top Gear, redoing the blog, creating something new, hanging out, driving, playing, watching anime, watching TV shows, watching movies, reading books, things that I want to do during this period of rest.
Maybe, it's because of insufficient rest. I feel lethargic and weak and sick every time I wake up, for work or for rest. Yes, I admit I sleep a lot, but this is a personal issue. Some people just need to sleep for 2 hours and they feel as if he's had steroids. Some people even after a 12 hours sleep still looks like a zombie walking.
Maybe, it's because of me. No courage to quit work, no balls to spend more time doing what I really want, no determination to utilize all 24 hours of the day. Being 'Mr Nice Guy' for too long. Now, I'm beginning to feel angry and short tempered and curse like ****, mainly due to work and partly due to not doing things that I wished to do.
I have had it. If the pressure keeps piling, I'd quit the job, cause a big mess of that ****** up company, go home, relax with a can of cool beer, and do the bloody things I want.
I don't want to follow rules, I don't like rules.
dRIVING_oUT
11:05:00 PM
